Wow, my last blog really sounds like I'm on the edge. What can I say, sleep deprivation and stressed out paranoia take their tolls! :)
I've been working my regular 3 day work weeks, with a few extra shifts here and there. My only goal as far as work and pregnancy is concerned is not calling in sick for my shifts. I've kept up well, but with every extra shift, I swear, I feel like throwing in the towel. This week the regular bartender was on vacation, so they put me in her shifts and nobody in mine...which just goes to show how essential my position is in the first place. When I'm scheduled to bartend, my supervisor avoids me, ignoring my calls on the radio for a break. I'm pregnant...you can't just not let me pee! Ugh. Too bad momma needs the money and the extra vacation/sick time to accrue, otherwise I wouldn't put up with it...but I gotta keep my eye on the prize, come on November!!
I got a cute carseat cover for new baby which I just piled into the spare bedroom with all the wedding decor and other random items that have no true place in our home. But after I finally got around to putting it all on, I just filled to the brim with anticipation and excitement. We're going to have a new baby! He's going to be small and sweet and smell just perfect...I can't wait! I've definitely had issues with planning the wedding and planning for his arrival and which should be taking more precedence. I mean, the wedding thing I've never done before, so it's overwhelming in it's own right...but another baby...that's HUGE! Our children will double in November, as will our responsibilities. Timmy's had it really good the past two years, but his 'only-child' status is about to be revoked...and I couldn't be more scare and kind of sad. I know they say you'll just magically have more love for your next child...but I don't want it to at all dwarf my love for Timmy, and I'm scared I won't be able to spend as much time as I would like to with him. I don't want to ever be unavailable to him...but I know that's unrealistic with a newborn. :'(
Speaking of two years...two weeks until Timmy hits the big 0-2! I can't even believe that he's been around for almost two years now, and yet life felt nonexistent before he came along...funny how that works! We don't have a party or anything planned for this particular birthday...I'd blame it on poor timing with my birthday and the baby sprinkle coming up and then new baby...but unfortunately, it's simply because he wouldn't enjoy a social gathering of any sort. He hates to be center of attention and panics when he is...even in our own home, if one of my friends come over and tries to hug him or directs any affection at him whatsoever, he cries. So we think we'll have a Timmy Day and take him to the park or Chuck E Cheese or Jump'n'Play and just enjoy him enjoying himself. I love that kid, he gets more incredible by the minute! He's growing so fast and amazing us with the things he learns...like his alphabet and numbers...a couple random words (ball, apple, car, weee)...owning all slides on any playground...he's just astounding.
