Re-Hashing The Unbroken

Life has been good...I'd even go so far to say life has been blissfully easy. Minus a silly cough I have, (which has subsequently kept me from meeting two new babies that two of my good friends have brought into the world in the past few days,) everything has been so wonderful. It's been so lovely having all this time to spend with my sweet little baby, who's not much a of baby these days...he's growing so much, I'm in such awe of him.

Which brings me to my current conundrum: right now I work three little days a week cocktailing and have the authority to pick up extra shifts when they come about, cocktailing, serving, or bartending...but someone just got let go, and it seems her position is going to become available, bartending. I don't even know what the days or hours are, and I might be completely out of line to think I should even stand a chance to get it, considering I am not at all at the top of the seniority totem (anymore)...but nonetheless, I'm being offered these shifts for the time being. I love my job...it's simple, fun, good money...but not stable money...bartending would be a more steady income.

I know of several people who are interested in this position...and someone said to me today, "[so-n-so] will get it because he has the most bartending seniority...and then I'll get his spot, because I have the second highest..." I didn't say anything about how I have been offered the shifts in the meantime of this impending bidding war. Honestly, I don't give two shits about seniority and what's 'fair' by their standards...no one knows the hell I went through, except for the handful of others who suffered through it with me. This position, is the exact position I asked for 3 years ago...and if seniority had mattered at all then, I would have gotten it...and wouldn't have been 'displaced' and forced to fend for myself through Woodlands and felt my only option was to transfer to the hotel, only to come back and start at square one.
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I feel like all of this is re-hashing a wound that I thought had already healed...and I still don't know if it's something I should even do, now that I have Timmy, and that Drew and I are thinking about trying for our second little babe. Maybe this job was perfect for me, 3 years ago...but perhaps now, it's more of a selfish desire. Guess we'll see...

Elmira, NY

Hello from NY! We made it, safe and sound and with zero issues. Timmy slept like a log on the first flight and the second flight...without any drugging whatsoever!

Since we're out of our element, we've most certainly had our trying moments...I mean, I don't feel completely comfortable in a strange house at 4:30am, breastfeeding in the living room...but we're trying our best not to let these moments define our entire trip.

Drew's enjoying being able to watch some ESPN (we don't have cable, not gonna pay 50 bucks a month just to watch trash like Teen Mom and Bad Girls Club) and lounging around his Ma's house. I, on the other hand, am enjoying dragging Drew away from the football mayhem and going to local touristy spots. We went to the Corning Glass Museum and then the Cantor's Fall Festival...and we were dangerously close to going apple picking, but I had a perpetual headache that hung on from the previous day, and Drew had gotten up with Timmy at 2am...to sum up, we were dragging ass. We went to The Commons today in Ithaca so I could buy a glass pipe for Becky, my bartender. She's gonna love it! Felt a little out of place in the pipe store, but people are real quick to give you the low-down on what's what in the drug related community...haha. :)

Two more days, and we're coming home! I've had a great time, but I can't wait to sleep in our bed and to get Timmy back into a routine...cuz here, it's be chaos. I just hope our flight home is as eventless as our trip over.