I've never known a happiness like this before...awaking every day the person most dear to me...sharing so many treasured moments with him, sharing my life with him...it's almost surreal. I love this part of my life...and sometimes, I think that's really all that matters and all that I need in life...and then I go to work...
Work's been ridiculously awful lately. I've pretty much been over-looked for a position that I'm more than qualified to assume. What's worse, is that there were many, like 30, positions that I was denied from...leaving me with a job that's soon to be obsolete. I'm feeling discouraged and insulted...among countless other appalled feelings. I'm watching as people with half the seniority and no qualifications get a job, that by all logic, should be mine...it's disheartening...it makes me not want to put forth any effort at work at all, knowing it won't get me anywhere. And every day, they some how find a way to make me feel more disregarded then before.
With all of this irrationalness spewing all around my work place...I'm even concerned that I may not have a job for much longer. If my new superiors are unable to understand the significance of my credentials and my work ethics now, and I lack the personal blatantness to throw it all in front of them and relieve them of doing any actual supervising whatsoever...I can only imagine how much worse it's going to be in the future. With a broken spirit, I doubt my performance is going to be as shiny as it is now...
...I'm breaking. :(
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