Yesterday was a bad day for me.
I worked an eleven and a half hour shift, with some little twit of a girl who just didn't care about her job performance. We clean hotel rooms...which is no cake walk...but it's not brain surgery either. This girl cleaned 3 rooms in eight hours...and not well! I just wanted to fire her, but don't have the authority...and I really didn't see a point into calling her aside and saying, "I'm gonna need you to start caring and, ya know, maybe trying." I'm guessing she's about 18 or 19 years old and she's never had a job and that she really doesn't like 'working.' That's just great. So I spent my very long, taxing day, picking up after this child...who actually went out of her way to rinse out dirty coffee cups and simply replace them in the room. So yeah, after work, I was pretty livid, to say the least.
Then I went to say bye to Drew, who had been pulled to the Woodlands kitchen because it was so busy. I get down there and I see the mayhem and the stress and food just dying in the window...and after working almost twelve hours prior, my heart ached to be a part of this insanity...to feel the sense of accomplishment after running my butt off and the rewarding feeling of counting out my tips at the end of the night. I miss serving...the customers, the interaction, the feeling of knowing I'm great at what I'm doing and proving it time and again.
I know I chose to leave this world behind...and I know I wouldn't be happy if I hadn't...and I know that the path I chose is stable and reliable...and yet, still I yearn.
Drew doesn't like to see me 'wanting' to be a server...and I really don't blame him, I was miserable. But it was never the serving, it was the management...which is exactly why I chose to be a supervisor, so I could be part of the solution...ahh, enlightenment, glad I found you! Took my whole self-pity spew to have that revelation!
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I am very happy that you came to that epiphany! You undoubtedly know by now that many people in this country have acquired the "attitude of the unearned"-I deserve to be treated with respect cuz we're equal, rather than cuz I earned it. We look around us and watch daily as people with that attitude are manipulated, through governmental policies, into backing and supporting candidates and legislation that reward the unearned through the seizing of the property of those that earned it! People like the girl you are writing about, are part of the machine that is systematically destroying our freedoms and our country. Yeah, I have been reading Atlas Shrugged again. :)
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