Jet Lag

We're coming home from Thailand today! It's been a trial, to say the very least. I used to love traveling...the airports, the feeling of free-flowing emotion, the culture-change shock, the freedom of being able to go aboard a metal box of sorts and exit it in a whole other world. I mean, it's romantic, right??

I guess this was my old perception...the perception of a freer spirit, without real responsibilities and required reason...the perception of a twenty-something waitress, who rents a different apartment with a different roommate every few months, driving a beat-up run-down little go-cart of a car, who stringently puts away into a savings account without anything in particular she's saving for. Traveling for her was romantic and exhilarating...but me? I scoff at this girl of yesteryear, and I envy her all at the same time.  

I wish life was that easy sometimes. But the reward is worth all the struggle, and in my heart I know this, but I can't help but feel like I fall short sometimes...like just that simple wish of wanting it to be easier makes me feel like a failure. 

I doubt I'll be returning to Thailand any time soon...with the heat, the impatient child, an impatient fiancé, which leads to an impatient me, it was hard. Drew doesn't care for the food and I understand his frustration of not being able to do anything on our time, because everything is based on Timmy's schedule and nap cycles. But that pretty much led us both into sour moods most of the time, bickering for no real reason. Even now, the first of three flights, he's restless and annoyed. It makes it miserable to travel with him...this constant attitude. He does it regardless of where we are traveling, so I've learned. Even before we had a kid, hah. From here on out, I intend on sending him a day in advance, so that way I don't have to deal with the 'tude! But I'm not sure he'll want to return to Thailand....and that's fine, he tried it, it wasn't his bag, I can accept that. But never again will I travel with babies! They must be grown and understand the concept of time zone changes and that we sleep at night! :)