Wedding Blues

I've been feeling so down lately...like I'm doing too much, with no payout or return. This wedding's wearing me out...we're 12 days out and I got a message from a friend saying they're terribly sorry but won't be able to make it, after having already RSVP'd for 2 guests. Seriously?! I've already paid a good amount of money per head, so if you've said you're coming, the very least you can do is show up. Now I feel like I'm just waiting for more of these late 'regrets.' *sigh* And then I've been trying to get toned and tan for the wedding, not thinking much of it...but yesterday, Erin mentioned how tiny I look, so I tried my dress on today...aaannnd...it's too big! When I lift my arms, my boobs come flying out! Crap. So now I've got to get my dress re-fitted, and re-pay for this stupid service...and pay a little extra since it's a rush job. *sigh* I just wanna cry.