Life has been good...I'd even go so far to say life has been blissfully easy. Minus a silly cough I have, (which has subsequently kept me from meeting two new babies that two of my good friends have brought into the world in the past few days,) everything has been so wonderful. It's been so lovely having all this time to spend with my sweet little baby, who's not much a of baby these days...he's growing so much, I'm in such awe of him.
Which brings me to my current conundrum: right now I work three little days a week cocktailing and have the authority to pick up extra shifts when they come about, cocktailing, serving, or bartending...but someone just got let go, and it seems her position is going to become available, bartending. I don't even know what the days or hours are, and I might be completely out of line to think I should even stand a chance to get it, considering I am not at all at the top of the seniority totem (anymore)...but nonetheless, I'm being offered these shifts for the time being. I love my job...it's simple, fun, good money...but not stable money...bartending would be a more steady income.
I know of several people who are interested in this position...and someone said to me today, "[so-n-so] will get it because he has the most bartending seniority...and then I'll get his spot, because I have the second highest..." I didn't say anything about how I have been offered the shifts in the meantime of this impending bidding war. Honestly, I don't give two shits about seniority and what's 'fair' by their standards...no one knows the hell I went through, except for the handful of others who suffered through it with me. This position, is the exact position I asked for 3 years ago...and if seniority had mattered at all then, I would have gotten it...and wouldn't have been 'displaced' and forced to fend for myself through Woodlands and felt my only option was to transfer to the hotel, only to come back and start at square one.
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I feel like all of this is re-hashing a wound that I thought had already healed...and I still don't know if it's something I should even do, now that I have Timmy, and that Drew and I are thinking about trying for our second little babe. Maybe this job was perfect for me, 3 years ago...but perhaps now, it's more of a selfish desire. Guess we'll see...
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